Born for Gods and living with Angels

    It dint take too long for me to realize what I'm.

I know whatever I'm, I'm wholly responsible for it. The good and the bad is just me. the positive and negative is just me. They call me a Brahmin. I'm not an idol worshiper. i don't believe in ramas and krishnas.

born for the man and woman whom i believe had a major part in shaping me into what I'm, might seem as parents to me to this world.. technically yes.. but precisely.. my instincts make me believe they are my gods. to be born along side my brother I'm proud and i feel blessed in this existence to be a part of their lives..

But i often lose myself to the devil inside me. the other side of me. i get angry on myself. feel like why am i living having let this devil take possession of me.. when all the cards turn against me and when I'm neither in nor out... when i feel at no man's land...  when there is no one who could come into me and save my soul... when its all just me whom i have got to bring me back out of this misery and i have forgotten my good instincts and when  I'm utterly mad at myself at the edge of  everything..

well yes.. i know no one outside me can bring down the turmoil inside me to an end.. then arise a question in me.. i ask why are there these people other than me doing here.. why should i share myself with them when they couldn't do what is need  to me.. then one of them comes and kindles the good part of me and bring me back to my senses... what should i call them now.. it will be egoistic not to say a word.. it might seem i give something cos i got something..

but this is deep from my heart and in my right senses..

Born for Gods.. I'm blessed  to have these angels around me..

This is dedicated to all those angels in my life who bring me back to senses and make me live as what I'm.

love you all.

this moment is so beautiful.

karthik vasan b.

Man.. U do possess a good heart..

You get angry on yourself when you lose your conscious..

but you give yourself another chance to start a new life..

you get angry on others when they don't live their responsibilities..

but you realize that they haven't realized and you give them a let go..

your mind turns egoistic when someone shows anger on you for their own reasons without thinking what you were to them...

but then.. you say to yourself chill man this guy needs even more time..

you see people from backward areas.. even very old people... who never had a chance to realize what a life this is.. who are merged with this materialistic egoistic world...

your instinct says its hard to make these people understand and you feel pity for them..

you get frustrated with the day to day life.. you go to sleep with a broken heart. in the night..

but when you wake up on a new day.. you say life is beautiful and start it fresh..

you do something.. at times even everything to someone with love.. yet you find them happy for Else's sake and you are out of the picture.. you walk away or just step back off the picture with just a feeling that he or she is happy at least..

somebody does something for you out of love and expects something out of you.. but you are totally in a different world.. you are unable to satisfy them nor make them understand you doesn't belong here.. and you find yourself dejected.. ditched.. and in no man's land with all kind of emotions thinking where this life is going..

your are full of energy.. raw..unchannelized..

search is still on to find the way back.. 

but.....

Man... you do possess a good heart..

a good soul is sitting in you..

September 4th was a good day..

this moment is so beautiful..

bless the existence..

karthik vasan b